Calm in the crazy.
"HOW WONDERFUL IT IS THAT NO ONE NEED WAIT A SINGLE MOMENT BEFORE STARTING TO IMPROVE THE WORLD" ANNE FRANK
It really does drive all that we say and do and think and feel. Sometimes I put this in reverse. How I speak act process experience - drives perspective. If circumstances are bad and I allow them to shape my views, perspective suffers.
When considering Alabaster's origin, the tension between self doubt, fear of failure, blah blah blah
AND the still quiet voice that whispers
- YES YOU CAN -
I find myself (mostly) oddly calm in the face of such a tremendous undertaking. At least it feels tremendous to me.
**Every site visit requires pause, a few deep breaths, wonderment around scope of project**
Then comes the calm. Fully due to shadow - walking.
I know He hems me in before and behind, and THIS allows me to live within the tension.
As renovation is in full on GO mode, the mission behind Alabaster steadies me.
Of self and stuff.
This ultimately provides the often needed surge - the motivation - the fuel to keep forging ahead, believing fully that when we intend to impact our little corner of the world for purposes bigger than ourselves, we will indeed battle the push - pull narrative around the
"should I have...? - why did I...? - what was I thinking...?"
BUT finding peace and steadiness in the still quiet voice of the
"YES. YOU. CAN."